Dedicated to everyone where the thought of harming yourself ever crossed your mind. Nothing or nobody is worth hurting yourself. Learn to love and care for yourself. Be a survivor and not a victim, make your own story and start living.Monica Ingudam, 26th Jan 2014
Everyone goes through a phase leaving you completely broken. The reason why you reached that state may be different but the feeling of being broken is the same. You try to be strong on the outside picking yourself up trying to fix yourself going through a multitude of feelings. You go through loosing your self respect, a terrible heartache and a sense of feeling worthless leaving you empty.
At times when you are alone, you can’t control such strong emotions and even try resorting to hurting yourself. And when you come to that state you have to divert your mind to things you love doing. There has to be something you love doing. You have to promise yourself never to come to that state. It’s all in your mind. Let your mind take control over what you feel, over your heart. If you hurt yourself and die, you will be just another news in a small section, people will say “Oh so sad” “Nungaiteda” probably some sharing/comments in Facebook and other social media places. But you will soon be forgotten and people will move on with their life.
Nothing or nobody is worth hurting yourself. Learn to love and care for yourself. Be a survivor and not a victim, make your own story and start living. Look into the mirror and say “I am a survivor” “I am not a victim” “I will not be a victim” and see the strength in you, the strength no one can take away. It is yours and only yours. Get the strength, fix yourself and continue blooming beautifully.
About Monica Ingudam Born and raised with conflict background, lack of freedom in Manipur (India), based in Maryland (USA), patent holder for identifying Caller ID, with Computer Science Engineering background, you will find her innovating Healthcare solutions as a Senior Product Analyst. With the vision to spread love and peace, you will find her hosting high achiever workshops and talk-show at FindingTheVoices during the weekends to inspire, empower and educate. She loves painting, has pledged funds from her Art to giving back to the society and has successfully supported Palliative Care , education for children , relief for COVID19 in Manipur and currently raising funds for Library of Manipur and 1001Thagatchari gratitude project of Manipur. Do consider supporting her initiatives by getting her paintings and products made from her art.